You know that feeling you get when you feel like your in love with someone and everything is okay? Well I've had that feeling and then that feeling completely crushed me...
I fell for a guy who said that he loved me and wanted to be with me forever. He wanted us to move in together right after i got out of high school. Even said he would start working so that way we would have the money. He wanted to marry me and have children with me..said that he wanted to love me forever. And i knew he meant it. And i did too. I loved him and i still do with everything that i have. i don't know how im suppose to get over him..
I know that everything happens for a reason, but i hate not knowing what the reason is..
You know it's even worse when you cry yourself to sleep and he doesn't even seem to care..my heart is completely broken and i don't know how to get over it..
I'm back in to my depressed state again and i hate it! I hate being so mean to myself and everyone around me. I just don't even wanna be myself anymore..
i don't know what to do without him. i cry to sleep at night simply because i miss him so much that i cant close my eyes because FINALLY my reality was better then my dreams..and now they are both nightmares.
What to do...
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